This is a post full of both the remarkable and the absurd. Let's begin, though I'm very, very sure that my menial wording won't give the absurd part justice.
1. I just got back from running (nearly all) the loop around my neighborhood. I do believe that I could have even run more of it, but I wasn't wanting to push the possibility of my retching. I'm sure this feat of nature was possible because I'm wearing a newish pair of bright blue yoga/running/exercise-ish pants. And the weather is pretty perfect for just a few minutes here. You know what they say when it's 90 and humid all day - let's wait until 9 p.m., and then we'll consider running for the first time in a couple of years. Plus maybe people won't be watching by that point.
2. I bought 5 dozen eggs two days ago because when they're marked down to $1 and have a week of life yet in 'em, I've learned to snatch and run. I did remind the boy that the last time I bought such an obscene amount of eggs, our oven went kaput within days.
3. Remember way back when I brought home 20 bags of chocolate chips because they were dirt cheap? We have 2 1/2 bags of them left. It's been about 5 months.
4. We camped all of the past weekend in what was just a tick under 100
degrees from start to finish. I volunteered to take our newly minted
4-year old back to the tent for a nap (yep, she still naps fairly often,
and this was one of those days), intending to use the box fan
and relax with a book while she snoozed beside me. First, we nearly got
into a shouting match because my child kept insisting on being covered
with a blanket in what was nothing short of a sweat house. The child
slept, and I grabbed a grubby t-shirt to wipe the sweat off of my entire
head region every 2 minutes while I tried to read. Thanks be, the
joint cooled off significantly by nighttime, and all was well. The box
fan was a pointless waste of space; if it weren't so noisy, I wouldn't
even have believed it was on.
5. The second night of our camping adventure, I was dwelling and anxious while the group of 8 or so teenager-y/college-age-y young people beside us were happy and laughy until about 1 AM. They weren't obnoxious, mind you, but they were obviously awake. And all of that means I was pretty obviously awake, too. But the boy was less obviously awake. In fact, not too long after we turned our flashlights off, he raised his left arm in the air and said .
the boy: Vanya! (then slowly lowered his arm)
me: What?
the boy: mutter mutter mutter
[crickets]
me: Are you awake?
the boy: ------ [rolls over]
me: What did you say?
the boy: ...don't worry 'bout it.
He has no recollection of this. There was that one time when he dreamed he was kicking a soccer ball and was instead kicking me, but he's never muttered at me in some Russian-y sounding way and then told me to get over myself all while asleep.
The next morning, when I relayed to him that weird exchange, he very forthrightly said something to the effect of "Yeah, Vanya is a form of Ivan. I read a lot of books with Russian characters."
Obviously.
But I'll accept his explanation, which is better than my first thought, which was (I kid you not) who is this girl "Vanya" that you're dreaming about? Because seriously, dream about her all you want, but let's not tell me to not worry about it. That's just unnecessary.
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Tuesday, May 31, 2016
Memoir-izing
As always, first things first - the girls. (I should just start every post with "FTF" since that's pretty much how I start.) Actually, today's FTF is "the kids."
1. The Elder is a brand spankin' new 7-year old, and don't all gasp loudly now, but that doesn't make me one bit sad. Nope. I'm a big fan for being happy with whatever stage of life you're in, and that means that I've no trouble being thankful for our spunky little kid as she is right now rather than the squishy little squish'um that she was. Plus, our siblings are still popping out their own babies off & on, which mean I love on 'em and hand 'em back with diapers fully loaded. Case in point: This weekend...1 game of chase with toddler nephew and 1 cuddle to sleep time with baby nephew. I lurve it being the aunt.
2. The Younger did what 3-year olds do and tripped on her own puppy feet while walking from point A to point B on the sidewalk, which resulted in some well-and-good skinned knees. After the first 5 minutes of the tears, I tried to pass her off to the boy so that I could continue doing what I needed to do, seeing as how she was going to live and all. And with sobby gasps, she wailed "NOOO! My legs will fall off!" Props to the boy who had to keep a straight face since she was looking at him.
3. While I'm sitting here, I'm watching a mama starling feed her two baby starlings some regurgitated what-have-you's. Those babies look happy, and I don't care how brown a bird you are, when you're all cuddling up with your mommy bird to slurp up some sludgy worminess, it's a pretty sweet moment to spy on.
***Wrap-up and transition to my main point today (I have nothing clever to take us there, so this'll do).***
I love memoirs. I love them. I have a couple of degrees in literature, and frankly, I don't really get into reading the never ending drivel and bad writing that gets published today. Snobbery, perhaps. But I'll stay within the parameters of the classical literature canon any day. Many a time, I have started [insert name of best seller book] only to slog through 20 pages and groan when I see there are 382 left. What the what, modern day authors? Do we no longer have any grace or art? Must we resort to never ending spare allusions? To saccharine and cloying description that is less clever than horrid in its attempt to be different? [Irony here? Should I take a closer look at my own writings here? Nah. I'm not trying to get you buy in on my rambling. And, no one's clambering to publish it. I shall carry on.]
I'm just not a fan of modern writing. Occasionally, I'll find a nugget that I happily mined out, and those I'm quite happy to pass along to anyone who wants to know what I've been enjoying lately. But it's been so long since that's happened that a few months ago, while scanning the stacks at ye olde library, I realized I had no desire to read any of it. But a good memoir sounded just right, and it has been a mainstay on my nightstand ever since.
Looking back, I see how I have leaned toward memoir-fiction writing through classes and papers and final thesis writing. And since I've started reading memoir exclusively, I have
1. read several memoirs about topics of which I have no knowledge (dogs, a botanist, and living in Tuscany/Italy/Provence).
2. not been unsatisfied even once.
3. re-visited ideas that began when I was an undergraduate about the connection between memoir and healing.
4. pondered writing an article for publication.
5. considered how it relates to educational theory as well as practical applications for the classroom.
In the meantime, I've jotted some notes down, started exploring some databases, and considered how I'm going to integrate more of this approach in my upcoming classes. If you have any thoughts on memoir, please share! That's why we memoir-ize seemingly everything.
But right now, I'm turning this off to attack a 550-piece puzzle because this may be the summer-of-the memoir for me, but I'm declaring this to be the summer-of-the-puzzle for all of us. And it starts today. First up - Lucky the cat canoodling with Coco the cockatoo. It's a lovely way to spend some downtime with the girls, no sugar or devices involved.
However, the light of reading still shines bright in my early inevitably, memoir has interest and (almost certainly) a lack of lame dialogue.
1. The Elder is a brand spankin' new 7-year old, and don't all gasp loudly now, but that doesn't make me one bit sad. Nope. I'm a big fan for being happy with whatever stage of life you're in, and that means that I've no trouble being thankful for our spunky little kid as she is right now rather than the squishy little squish'um that she was. Plus, our siblings are still popping out their own babies off & on, which mean I love on 'em and hand 'em back with diapers fully loaded. Case in point: This weekend...1 game of chase with toddler nephew and 1 cuddle to sleep time with baby nephew. I lurve it being the aunt.
2. The Younger did what 3-year olds do and tripped on her own puppy feet while walking from point A to point B on the sidewalk, which resulted in some well-and-good skinned knees. After the first 5 minutes of the tears, I tried to pass her off to the boy so that I could continue doing what I needed to do, seeing as how she was going to live and all. And with sobby gasps, she wailed "NOOO! My legs will fall off!" Props to the boy who had to keep a straight face since she was looking at him.
3. While I'm sitting here, I'm watching a mama starling feed her two baby starlings some regurgitated what-have-you's. Those babies look happy, and I don't care how brown a bird you are, when you're all cuddling up with your mommy bird to slurp up some sludgy worminess, it's a pretty sweet moment to spy on.
***Wrap-up and transition to my main point today (I have nothing clever to take us there, so this'll do).***
I love memoirs. I love them. I have a couple of degrees in literature, and frankly, I don't really get into reading the never ending drivel and bad writing that gets published today. Snobbery, perhaps. But I'll stay within the parameters of the classical literature canon any day. Many a time, I have started [insert name of best seller book] only to slog through 20 pages and groan when I see there are 382 left. What the what, modern day authors? Do we no longer have any grace or art? Must we resort to never ending spare allusions? To saccharine and cloying description that is less clever than horrid in its attempt to be different? [Irony here? Should I take a closer look at my own writings here? Nah. I'm not trying to get you buy in on my rambling. And, no one's clambering to publish it. I shall carry on.]
I'm just not a fan of modern writing. Occasionally, I'll find a nugget that I happily mined out, and those I'm quite happy to pass along to anyone who wants to know what I've been enjoying lately. But it's been so long since that's happened that a few months ago, while scanning the stacks at ye olde library, I realized I had no desire to read any of it. But a good memoir sounded just right, and it has been a mainstay on my nightstand ever since.
Looking back, I see how I have leaned toward memoir-fiction writing through classes and papers and final thesis writing. And since I've started reading memoir exclusively, I have
1. read several memoirs about topics of which I have no knowledge (dogs, a botanist, and living in Tuscany/Italy/Provence).
2. not been unsatisfied even once.
3. re-visited ideas that began when I was an undergraduate about the connection between memoir and healing.
4. pondered writing an article for publication.
5. considered how it relates to educational theory as well as practical applications for the classroom.
In the meantime, I've jotted some notes down, started exploring some databases, and considered how I'm going to integrate more of this approach in my upcoming classes. If you have any thoughts on memoir, please share! That's why we memoir-ize seemingly everything.
But right now, I'm turning this off to attack a 550-piece puzzle because this may be the summer-of-the memoir for me, but I'm declaring this to be the summer-of-the-puzzle for all of us. And it starts today. First up - Lucky the cat canoodling with Coco the cockatoo. It's a lovely way to spend some downtime with the girls, no sugar or devices involved.
However, the light of reading still shines bright in my early inevitably, memoir has interest and (almost certainly) a lack of lame dialogue.
Thursday, May 19, 2016
These kids...
As I often seem to do, here's something of an aside before I get to the heart of things. Junie. B. Jones. Is amazing. And the person who put this together deserves some extra credit, and I mean it! (That was a direct quote. If you didn't know that, please do yourself the favor and go read those books pronto. That means super quick.)
That's kinda sorta leading into what I was going to jabber about anyway, which is to say K-I-D-S. Namely, all of the kids that my 6-year old rubs shoulders with. I have this thing where I find myself agreeing to all sorts of hoopla and shenanigans without really processing what I'm doing first. This led me to spending 1 1/2 hours with hilarious little nutballs once a week during this thing called "centers."
What are "centers?" Apparently, over the last 25 years, teacher people have all banded together and thought "How can we test the ever living patience of parents even more than helping them learn to read?" (which is and of itself a trying, trying time when your child would OH SO MUCH rather listen to you read in your fabulous character voices...frankly, I agree with her - my voices are sa-weet). The solution to this conundrum was to shanghai a handful of well-intentioned motherly souls ('cause there just aren't enough fatherly souls hanging around their houses with their feet propped up while sipping perfect mugs of coffee and binging on Netflix, it seems) to come into the classroom to work with groups of 3-4 students on various reading and math skills.
It turns out that this is the very reason why I believe in public education. Not everyone has the sheer audacity to be perky and positive for hours, every single weekday. Bless the souls who give it their all for childs everywhere.
(In all truthiness, the boy and I are both licensed, sometimes practicing, public school teachers. When considering schooling and homeing and everything in between for The Elder, we ultimately decided that we need to stick with what we believe in, namely public school. Never once have we regretted that. Plus, one of us - either The Elder or me - would no doubt be weeping and yelling vindictive things at the other every single day if we duked it out at home over elementary math and writing, and I try not to do that with my kids. Homeschooling parents - I adore you. Public school teachers - I adore you, too. You're all pretty fabulous to me.)
So we just wrapped up the last centers time of the year yesterday, and (I kid you not), one kid looked at me in the middle of our activity and said "You're A's mom, right?" I mean. What?!? I've only known you for 35 weeks; let's not get too hasty in getting to know each other.
(Sidenote: The Younger's rest time has been over for 15 minutes, and she has come out of her room about 3 times to say random things like "Mom, why were you just standing up?" [I wasn't] and "I love you," and "Dinosaur!!!" Not once during that time has she thought to check the clock apparently. Sucker.)
Back to the elementary set. They seem to function as one 20-armed amoeba creature, either all UP UP UP or all rellllaxxxx and chilllllll. There's no in between. ("Amoeba" is a fun word, especially if you pronounce it as am-O-E-ba as I want to do.) But here's the most obvious truth that I've uncovered from this heart-on-their-sleeves lot of ragamuffins.
(Sidenote again: The Younger must have heard me thinking about her. I think she broke out now.)
These kids. You can predict all sorts of predictions about them already. You can pretty much identify the ones that are likely to always skate by in general English classes, content to be mediocre. You can pick out the ones that are going to be bored in Chemistry, which will mean that they play games on their phones instead. You can even figure out which ones are going to be the mean kids someday, not that they are now but you see the tendencies already.
But, likewise, you identify the ones that you dearly, dearly hope your kid understands will be a true friend for the long-haul. You determine the ones that will be coming over to your house on weekends and to drive your child to band practice. You see natural aptitudes already apparent for math, science and English.
Truly, it will be fascinating to sit at their high school graduation someday and do some remembering about what they were like when they were just yay-high and always waved "hello" and "good-bye" to you when they saw you. This is very likely the only year that I will engage in such concentrated one-on-one time with my daughters' classmates, so in some respects, it's been a special time. But on the other hand, if I never have to remind two boys to stop throwing dice against the wall and then to stop falling off of their chairs to chase it, it will be too soon.
Cheers to a good year, to all those who find yourselves in an educator's role and to all of those who have accidentally or otherwise found yourself even a wee bit more educated. I love this whole process.
That's kinda sorta leading into what I was going to jabber about anyway, which is to say K-I-D-S. Namely, all of the kids that my 6-year old rubs shoulders with. I have this thing where I find myself agreeing to all sorts of hoopla and shenanigans without really processing what I'm doing first. This led me to spending 1 1/2 hours with hilarious little nutballs once a week during this thing called "centers."
What are "centers?" Apparently, over the last 25 years, teacher people have all banded together and thought "How can we test the ever living patience of parents even more than helping them learn to read?" (which is and of itself a trying, trying time when your child would OH SO MUCH rather listen to you read in your fabulous character voices...frankly, I agree with her - my voices are sa-weet). The solution to this conundrum was to shanghai a handful of well-intentioned motherly souls ('cause there just aren't enough fatherly souls hanging around their houses with their feet propped up while sipping perfect mugs of coffee and binging on Netflix, it seems) to come into the classroom to work with groups of 3-4 students on various reading and math skills.
It turns out that this is the very reason why I believe in public education. Not everyone has the sheer audacity to be perky and positive for hours, every single weekday. Bless the souls who give it their all for childs everywhere.
(In all truthiness, the boy and I are both licensed, sometimes practicing, public school teachers. When considering schooling and homeing and everything in between for The Elder, we ultimately decided that we need to stick with what we believe in, namely public school. Never once have we regretted that. Plus, one of us - either The Elder or me - would no doubt be weeping and yelling vindictive things at the other every single day if we duked it out at home over elementary math and writing, and I try not to do that with my kids. Homeschooling parents - I adore you. Public school teachers - I adore you, too. You're all pretty fabulous to me.)
So we just wrapped up the last centers time of the year yesterday, and (I kid you not), one kid looked at me in the middle of our activity and said "You're A's mom, right?" I mean. What?!? I've only known you for 35 weeks; let's not get too hasty in getting to know each other.
(Sidenote: The Younger's rest time has been over for 15 minutes, and she has come out of her room about 3 times to say random things like "Mom, why were you just standing up?" [I wasn't] and "I love you," and "Dinosaur!!!" Not once during that time has she thought to check the clock apparently. Sucker.)
Back to the elementary set. They seem to function as one 20-armed amoeba creature, either all UP UP UP or all rellllaxxxx and chilllllll. There's no in between. ("Amoeba" is a fun word, especially if you pronounce it as am-O-E-ba as I want to do.) But here's the most obvious truth that I've uncovered from this heart-on-their-sleeves lot of ragamuffins.
(Sidenote again: The Younger must have heard me thinking about her. I think she broke out now.)
These kids. You can predict all sorts of predictions about them already. You can pretty much identify the ones that are likely to always skate by in general English classes, content to be mediocre. You can pick out the ones that are going to be bored in Chemistry, which will mean that they play games on their phones instead. You can even figure out which ones are going to be the mean kids someday, not that they are now but you see the tendencies already.
But, likewise, you identify the ones that you dearly, dearly hope your kid understands will be a true friend for the long-haul. You determine the ones that will be coming over to your house on weekends and to drive your child to band practice. You see natural aptitudes already apparent for math, science and English.
Truly, it will be fascinating to sit at their high school graduation someday and do some remembering about what they were like when they were just yay-high and always waved "hello" and "good-bye" to you when they saw you. This is very likely the only year that I will engage in such concentrated one-on-one time with my daughters' classmates, so in some respects, it's been a special time. But on the other hand, if I never have to remind two boys to stop throwing dice against the wall and then to stop falling off of their chairs to chase it, it will be too soon.
Cheers to a good year, to all those who find yourselves in an educator's role and to all of those who have accidentally or otherwise found yourself even a wee bit more educated. I love this whole process.
Monday, May 9, 2016
An absolutely professional quiz [shrugs shoulders]
Every once in a while, I see a list of questions floating around to ask your children, you know, if you really want to hear what they think about you. (It basically reminds me of when I was student teaching and my cooperating teacher suggested that I consider ending my last day with 100 freshman by asking them to evaluate me. Answer: I will never do that again.) So the Younger and I went through a list of 23 questions that has apparently been circulating around the U.K. But then I got rid of the list of questions. So I'll just make up some of my own questions here to correspond with these answers. Perhaps this will be more enjoyable.
(Of note: I found this list again because aww...Mother's Day. Except that I'm very much in the "Who cares?" mode for pretty much every holiday, especially "holidays." Still. I like my daughter, so why not?)
1. What do I say a lot? I love you.
2. What makes me happy? hugs & kisses
3. What was the name of my sixth grade teacher? [shrugs shoulders]
4. How do I make you laugh? by saying funny things
5. What was I like when I was your age? a little bean [This was the actual question/answer for this one. I like it.]
6. How old am I? 33
7. What was the first movie that I saw in a movie theater when I was about three years old? [shrugs shoulders]
8. What is my favorite thing to do? read books to me...I mean cuddle with me
9. What do I do when you're not around? go to class
10. What is the name of one of my most influential theorists who helped shape my graduate work? [shrugs shoulders]
11. What is something something something having to do with what I enjoy to do? reading
12. What is something about how I try to be like you? making my funny smiles because I make them like this [demonstrates] and you don't
13. What do I do for a job? go to work
14. What is my favorite food? soup
15. What is another question about one of my favorite things to do with you? reading to me
16. If I were a character from a story, who would I be? Elsa
17. What is another question about something relating to my hobbies? read
18. How are we similar? [makes her special silly face]
19. How are we different? [looking me over] You have black pants and I don't.
20. What makes me happy [or some variation of that]? hugging and kisses
21. What do I like best about Daddy? He helps you out sometimes.
22. Where do I like to go the most? to get coffee 'cause you really like coffee, right?
23. How old was I when I had you? [first restates the question] umm...3
(Of note: I found this list again because aww...Mother's Day. Except that I'm very much in the "Who cares?" mode for pretty much every holiday, especially "holidays." Still. I like my daughter, so why not?)
1. What do I say a lot? I love you.
2. What makes me happy? hugs & kisses
3. What was the name of my sixth grade teacher? [shrugs shoulders]
4. How do I make you laugh? by saying funny things
5. What was I like when I was your age? a little bean [This was the actual question/answer for this one. I like it.]
6. How old am I? 33
7. What was the first movie that I saw in a movie theater when I was about three years old? [shrugs shoulders]
8. What is my favorite thing to do? read books to me...I mean cuddle with me
9. What do I do when you're not around? go to class
10. What is the name of one of my most influential theorists who helped shape my graduate work? [shrugs shoulders]
11. What is something something something having to do with what I enjoy to do? reading
12. What is something about how I try to be like you? making my funny smiles because I make them like this [demonstrates] and you don't
13. What do I do for a job? go to work
14. What is my favorite food? soup
15. What is another question about one of my favorite things to do with you? reading to me
16. If I were a character from a story, who would I be? Elsa
17. What is another question about something relating to my hobbies? read
18. How are we similar? [makes her special silly face]
19. How are we different? [looking me over] You have black pants and I don't.
20. What makes me happy [or some variation of that]? hugging and kisses
21. What do I like best about Daddy? He helps you out sometimes.
22. Where do I like to go the most? to get coffee 'cause you really like coffee, right?
23. How old was I when I had you? [first restates the question] umm...3
Thursday, May 5, 2016
BYOCCC
I bite at making real life decisions.
I go through all the grief stages over things like job-ing and child bear-ing. And I'm not even joke-ing here.
Of late, I've spent a precious many hours on a scouting mission to replace my eyesore of an oven that decided 615F is an admirable temp to bake a pan or two of cookies. To which I say "Nay, tis not." So we could go through the laborious process of having a tech come out to diagnose what we already know is the problem, which is likely to involve someone tromping throughout my house while wearing shoes before pulling the guts of the oven out on a price per minute basis. Or, we could just chuck its 18-year old almond-and-black colored bum self to the curb and start over again, which likewise ends in hours = lotsadollas spent. So, I've been working in minutes here and there to swing by the few appliance joints that we have around here as well as surf various retail and outlet sites in the hopes of saving $40 somewhere.
It took a solid seven days for me/us to even figure out what kind of stovetop I/we want. The answer - neither. Thanks but not thanks, I'll just take a gas line plumbed to my kitchen for a cringe-worthy amount of cash and we'll go from there. What...that's not a feasible option? Fine. I still want neither.
And now I'm on the suck-it-up-and-just-pick-something search for an appliance that I'm not at all excited about, which is frustrating given the amount of time I spend dancing with it. It's like going to the prom because you love dressing up, going out to eat and socializing, but then not really wanting to dance with anyone when you're there. But you do, 'cause you spent a lot of money on that prom dress, hair do and limo. Plus, you really like the outcome of it, which is to say glorious pictures of you looking your best.
So I'm planning on marching into one of those stores, credit card in hand tonight with the intent to sign on the line for a brand new, shiny piece of metal that I'm already feeling anxiety about lest I break its shiny glass top.
The whole thing came about when I had my absolute favorite chocolate chip cookies in the oven last week after the boy sent me one of those "Sixth period was rough today" messages (rarely happens that he sends me an SOS in the middle of the day). This, of course, makes me want to sympathy stress eat with him, and if his favorite is chocolate chip cookies, then by all means, let's mix up a batch. I was 2 pans in before the oven went nutsy on me. Good news: Some of the cookies were salvaged. Bad news: It was like the set of a horror movie...chocolate chip briquettes everywhere. Eight days later, on the day when I'm going to say "Yes, I want that one, and it can't come soon enough," the boy just sent me another message saying "Extra cookies in the break room...bringing some home."
Lesson learned: When the oven goes down, it's BYOCCC (bring your own chocolate chip cookies) if 6th period has been an arduous adventure in teenage wrangling.
I go through all the grief stages over things like job-ing and child bear-ing. And I'm not even joke-ing here.
Of late, I've spent a precious many hours on a scouting mission to replace my eyesore of an oven that decided 615F is an admirable temp to bake a pan or two of cookies. To which I say "Nay, tis not." So we could go through the laborious process of having a tech come out to diagnose what we already know is the problem, which is likely to involve someone tromping throughout my house while wearing shoes before pulling the guts of the oven out on a price per minute basis. Or, we could just chuck its 18-year old almond-and-black colored bum self to the curb and start over again, which likewise ends in hours = lotsadollas spent. So, I've been working in minutes here and there to swing by the few appliance joints that we have around here as well as surf various retail and outlet sites in the hopes of saving $40 somewhere.
It took a solid seven days for me/us to even figure out what kind of stovetop I/we want. The answer - neither. Thanks but not thanks, I'll just take a gas line plumbed to my kitchen for a cringe-worthy amount of cash and we'll go from there. What...that's not a feasible option? Fine. I still want neither.
And now I'm on the suck-it-up-and-just-pick-something search for an appliance that I'm not at all excited about, which is frustrating given the amount of time I spend dancing with it. It's like going to the prom because you love dressing up, going out to eat and socializing, but then not really wanting to dance with anyone when you're there. But you do, 'cause you spent a lot of money on that prom dress, hair do and limo. Plus, you really like the outcome of it, which is to say glorious pictures of you looking your best.
So I'm planning on marching into one of those stores, credit card in hand tonight with the intent to sign on the line for a brand new, shiny piece of metal that I'm already feeling anxiety about lest I break its shiny glass top.
The whole thing came about when I had my absolute favorite chocolate chip cookies in the oven last week after the boy sent me one of those "Sixth period was rough today" messages (rarely happens that he sends me an SOS in the middle of the day). This, of course, makes me want to sympathy stress eat with him, and if his favorite is chocolate chip cookies, then by all means, let's mix up a batch. I was 2 pans in before the oven went nutsy on me. Good news: Some of the cookies were salvaged. Bad news: It was like the set of a horror movie...chocolate chip briquettes everywhere. Eight days later, on the day when I'm going to say "Yes, I want that one, and it can't come soon enough," the boy just sent me another message saying "Extra cookies in the break room...bringing some home."
Lesson learned: When the oven goes down, it's BYOCCC (bring your own chocolate chip cookies) if 6th period has been an arduous adventure in teenage wrangling.
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Hold My Hand (but only in French)
The Elder had a field trip yesterday, and from her perspective, it was a good day. I had the Younger in tow, so I dropped her off for attendance and herding purposes before driving to the site and meeting up with them for the day. This turned out GREAT.
1. The Younger and I got there a solid 30 minutes before the bus, which gave us time to do some fun things on our own.
2. I got to take both girls back home with me in my car, which saved me frantic pick-up/drop-off moments since I had class last night.
3. I got all of the benefits of being a chaperone with none of the duties of being a chaperone. It was like being the cool aunt at Christmas.
4. I was able to hang back and watch my kid doing her thing when she wasn't even paying attention to me.
5. The Younger and I left the class a couple of times to explore places exclusively designed for littler hands.
The trip didn't start GREAT for the Elder, though. Once I got to the site, I texted another kid's mom so that she would let me know when the bus arrived and I could meet up with them. Then she wrote back right away with this:
Other mom: "Does your kid get carsick? She's up with the teacher at the front of the bus now. I held a bag for her. My daughter was sitting with us in the seat, but she bailed."
Me: "Ha! Yeah, she does get carsick sometimes."
I may have just laughed at her. Right after my kid just puked in a plastic bag that this other mom was holding.
I definitely read that first text from her wrong.
So I thought that my kid was a bit motion sicknessy but didn't realize she, you know, actually went full throttle on that.
It also turns out that this other mom is fully on the squeemish side herself. Lesson learned: Read those texts more carefully before laughing at the other person's plight.
But this whole scenario also served a purpose other than sending me into flashback mode to my 5th grade field trip to Chicago and my first airplane flight AND my second flight. And then there was that time on the Tilt-o-Whirl...(fortunately, that one ended A-OK).
So basically, my kid comes by her tender tummy honestly.
But a change of scenery and a fresh perspective does wonders when we're overwhelmed, doesn't it? Sometimes, we just need to change our seat, fan our face, take a few deep breaths, and let someone give us a hug while they try their best to distract us from the trouble at hand. People, we are called to nurse and assist in a number of ways. When you see someone needing some help (even if there's something yucky happening in the moment...just deal with that later), you have to take that person's hand.
And on a lighter note, I suggested to the Younger that she practice writing her name on a paper that she was coloring. But she was having none of that, proclaiming "No Mommy, I want to write it in French." [scribble scribble scribble]
'Cause, you know, those letters are different in French...?!?
1. The Younger and I got there a solid 30 minutes before the bus, which gave us time to do some fun things on our own.
2. I got to take both girls back home with me in my car, which saved me frantic pick-up/drop-off moments since I had class last night.
3. I got all of the benefits of being a chaperone with none of the duties of being a chaperone. It was like being the cool aunt at Christmas.
4. I was able to hang back and watch my kid doing her thing when she wasn't even paying attention to me.
5. The Younger and I left the class a couple of times to explore places exclusively designed for littler hands.
The trip didn't start GREAT for the Elder, though. Once I got to the site, I texted another kid's mom so that she would let me know when the bus arrived and I could meet up with them. Then she wrote back right away with this:
Other mom: "Does your kid get carsick? She's up with the teacher at the front of the bus now. I held a bag for her. My daughter was sitting with us in the seat, but she bailed."
Me: "Ha! Yeah, she does get carsick sometimes."
I may have just laughed at her. Right after my kid just puked in a plastic bag that this other mom was holding.
I definitely read that first text from her wrong.
So I thought that my kid was a bit motion sicknessy but didn't realize she, you know, actually went full throttle on that.
It also turns out that this other mom is fully on the squeemish side herself. Lesson learned: Read those texts more carefully before laughing at the other person's plight.
But this whole scenario also served a purpose other than sending me into flashback mode to my 5th grade field trip to Chicago and my first airplane flight AND my second flight. And then there was that time on the Tilt-o-Whirl...(fortunately, that one ended A-OK).
So basically, my kid comes by her tender tummy honestly.
But a change of scenery and a fresh perspective does wonders when we're overwhelmed, doesn't it? Sometimes, we just need to change our seat, fan our face, take a few deep breaths, and let someone give us a hug while they try their best to distract us from the trouble at hand. People, we are called to nurse and assist in a number of ways. When you see someone needing some help (even if there's something yucky happening in the moment...just deal with that later), you have to take that person's hand.
And on a lighter note, I suggested to the Younger that she practice writing her name on a paper that she was coloring. But she was having none of that, proclaiming "No Mommy, I want to write it in French." [scribble scribble scribble]
'Cause, you know, those letters are different in French...?!?
Thursday, April 14, 2016
Melaton-ahhhh
Hi. It's been a weird couple of weeks here, which culminated in weepy stress-ville about a job that I don't really even want and a trip to the doctor to help me sleep in my own bed because "bed" is better than "couch."
And my baseball boys are now a salty 0-fer-the-start-of-the-season, which is basically 10 days of misery right here. There's already some talk about "growing pains" and "first pick in the draft" and "just trying to keep it fun around here," but we're only 9 games into the season. And as I'm writing this, I keep thinking about the shiny new bottle of anti-anxiety pills sitting on my counter right now. FITTING. And perhaps mildly necessary.
In what was another quasi-bizarre-trip-to-the-doctor (if ever I needed a Prozac, this was it), I was given the 2-minute "Are you really, really sad?" drill a few days ago. At one point, there was even a clipboard with questions, and anyone who's been through a job interview knows that there is always more than one answer to the question. So I'm staring at this thing thinking to myself "Do I want her to think that I'm depressed? Or, do I need to just look stuff up on web.md?" Because that was about the same thing happening there.
Let me be clear, I think she was a nice enough doctor, but I wasn't expecting the harsh honesty of the questions, which amounted to the likes of "Are you depressed?" and "Do you want something for anxiety, depression or both?"
I'm not someone who wants a menu from which to select my drugs when going to a doctor's office. Someone else just order for me, already. That's why we're here on this date, isn't it?
But, hoo-ray, the clipboard quiz revealed that I'm not depressed enough to warrant worried looks (and meds). I did then get tripped up when asked "So what are you anxious about?" and all deer-in-the-headlights, I'm thinking "How much time do you have?"
I think there's a disconnect between sitting nonchalantly and calmly in the neutral waiting room style chair and replying "Well, what am I not anxious about? I'm pretty good at it. Real gold star quality."
-I want someone to make my life decisions for me since they feel suffocatingly overwhelming.
-I can't reason how I'm supposed to take care of my kids but also take care of myself.
-I'm not sure what "taking care of myself" even means.
-I don't know how to plan for the future when it's seemingly impossible to predict.
-And most importantly, I need someone to help me get "Let It Go" out of my head when I'm trying to sleep.
(Now, I'm a big fan of "Let It Go," and we YouTube it frequently. But the mind needs a break, friends. And it seems so ironically cruel when this is my torture-sphere - the witching hour between getting sleepy and getting sleeped. But that Olaf, he's a riot and so deliciously punny in his little soft-shoe number.)
Perhaps the "How anxious are you?" should have been answered something like this: "Well, I'm pretty sure I've screwed up my whole adulthood, and I don't know how to get out of this mire, which makes me sound and feel pretty ungrateful (am I?), though I try to be patient and put things in perspective (do I?), but it seems like some day I'm going to look back on everything and think about what a bunch of nothing I accomplished (will I?), and I channel my inner-Elsa every night, so please, help me out?"
I also casually mentioned that I don't really like sleeping in the same area as anyone else and, you know, I'm married, so that's been rough lately. To which she asked me, "How long have you been married?" and I answered "11 years." Then she blinked at me. For seconds on end. And asked, "This hasn't been a problem before?"
I know. Anxiety-inducing. I'm a bucket-full of contradictions. You can imagine the boy's delight when he tries to talk to me logically.
But all was not lost. I took the nice lady doctor up on her suggestion to give it the old melatonin try, and I'm not singing from the mountain tops yet, but it's been t-w-o nights of sleepin' without mental anguish. So there's that. Plus, I got the sweet, gummy kind of pills. And that's good, too.
But now, I accidentally happened upon an explanation of melatonin from the take-it-as-you-will Wikipedia, which describes it as "a substance found in animals, plants, fungi, and bacteria." I guess we all need a little help every now and again.
And my baseball boys are now a salty 0-fer-the-start-of-the-season, which is basically 10 days of misery right here. There's already some talk about "growing pains" and "first pick in the draft" and "just trying to keep it fun around here," but we're only 9 games into the season. And as I'm writing this, I keep thinking about the shiny new bottle of anti-anxiety pills sitting on my counter right now. FITTING. And perhaps mildly necessary.
In what was another quasi-bizarre-trip-to-the-doctor (if ever I needed a Prozac, this was it), I was given the 2-minute "Are you really, really sad?" drill a few days ago. At one point, there was even a clipboard with questions, and anyone who's been through a job interview knows that there is always more than one answer to the question. So I'm staring at this thing thinking to myself "Do I want her to think that I'm depressed? Or, do I need to just look stuff up on web.md?" Because that was about the same thing happening there.
Let me be clear, I think she was a nice enough doctor, but I wasn't expecting the harsh honesty of the questions, which amounted to the likes of "Are you depressed?" and "Do you want something for anxiety, depression or both?"
I'm not someone who wants a menu from which to select my drugs when going to a doctor's office. Someone else just order for me, already. That's why we're here on this date, isn't it?
But, hoo-ray, the clipboard quiz revealed that I'm not depressed enough to warrant worried looks (and meds). I did then get tripped up when asked "So what are you anxious about?" and all deer-in-the-headlights, I'm thinking "How much time do you have?"
I think there's a disconnect between sitting nonchalantly and calmly in the neutral waiting room style chair and replying "Well, what am I not anxious about? I'm pretty good at it. Real gold star quality."
-I want someone to make my life decisions for me since they feel suffocatingly overwhelming.
-I can't reason how I'm supposed to take care of my kids but also take care of myself.
-I'm not sure what "taking care of myself" even means.
-I don't know how to plan for the future when it's seemingly impossible to predict.
-And most importantly, I need someone to help me get "Let It Go" out of my head when I'm trying to sleep.
(Now, I'm a big fan of "Let It Go," and we YouTube it frequently. But the mind needs a break, friends. And it seems so ironically cruel when this is my torture-sphere - the witching hour between getting sleepy and getting sleeped. But that Olaf, he's a riot and so deliciously punny in his little soft-shoe number.)
Perhaps the "How anxious are you?" should have been answered something like this: "Well, I'm pretty sure I've screwed up my whole adulthood, and I don't know how to get out of this mire, which makes me sound and feel pretty ungrateful (am I?), though I try to be patient and put things in perspective (do I?), but it seems like some day I'm going to look back on everything and think about what a bunch of nothing I accomplished (will I?), and I channel my inner-Elsa every night, so please, help me out?"
I also casually mentioned that I don't really like sleeping in the same area as anyone else and, you know, I'm married, so that's been rough lately. To which she asked me, "How long have you been married?" and I answered "11 years." Then she blinked at me. For seconds on end. And asked, "This hasn't been a problem before?"
I know. Anxiety-inducing. I'm a bucket-full of contradictions. You can imagine the boy's delight when he tries to talk to me logically.
But all was not lost. I took the nice lady doctor up on her suggestion to give it the old melatonin try, and I'm not singing from the mountain tops yet, but it's been t-w-o nights of sleepin' without mental anguish. So there's that. Plus, I got the sweet, gummy kind of pills. And that's good, too.
But now, I accidentally happened upon an explanation of melatonin from the take-it-as-you-will Wikipedia, which describes it as "a substance found in animals, plants, fungi, and bacteria." I guess we all need a little help every now and again.
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